It's been awhile...

Sorry everyone...

Most of my time that I've spent writing lately has been in my other (music) blog (www.dancemusicedits.blogspot.com) and as you can tell I haven't written in this one for awhile...

But to re-cap:

Me: Im still with Justin. Things are beyond amazing! I dont even know where I would begin. I've never met anyone like him and I never want to be without him. This looks like the real deal kiddies. Im waiting for the ring with this one!! :-D

In other news, David and Stephen got married and it was one of the best weddings I've ever been to! I can't even tell you how elegant, sophisticated and just generally GORGEOUS it was!! Im so incredibly happy for them!!

In career news, Im on my way! It's looking like I'll be starting school at Paul Mitchell in January! It feels so good to have a direction! I did two blow outs yesterday (they're teaching me at my job) and they came out GREAT!! It felt awesome and I loved doing it!!

Look out Jose Eber!!!!

Thats it for now!! Talk to you soon and check out my other blog!!!!

~ John Michael ~

It's my happy heart you'll hear; singing loud and singing clear...

That's him ladies and gentlemen! That's my man. Justin.

As of right now, it's 9:36 on Tuesday morning and I've just woken up (at his place) and I'm reflecting on what was, without a doubt, one of the best weekends of my life.

I really don't know where to start, so I figured that picture would be good. That's in my apartment before we left for the trip.

Yes, we're in black and white, but it's ok, once we clear out our debt, we'll be in color again! Just ask Maya, she did it! Lmao! (Sorry everyone, that's an inside joke haha!)

I think the thing that really rocked my world was that even before we got anywhere, I was having a great time. Just being in his presence makes me collapse inwardly to all things Hallmark. It's almost scary, but I enjoy it immensly.

A few days before our trip, he gave me our different route options on how we could get there. Did I want a scenic route? Did I want a shorter route? Well, of course, fat girl logic kicked in once he asked if I wanted the route that had Krispy Kreme's along the way. I mean c'mon people! You can't deny an original glazed donut!!

And if I seem like I'm gushing an awful lot, you have to remember that aside from having the rockiest track record with men since Elizabeth Taylor, I do tend to be a little picky (shut up David) and I can usually find flaws within everyone I meet. It's a quality that runs through my family tree! However, for the first time in a very long time, I don't have that "Oh he's really great...but..."

No. There is no 'but'. He's amazing. I summed it up one night to him when I told him that I would now have to change the "Who I'd Like To Meet" section on my MySpace page because I've already met him.

(PS: My answer to that is now Cher.)

Even in the silences in our car ride, I've never felt closer to someone. As he said to me as well "I don't feel weird with you ever." and it's so true! I'm comfortable and I feel safe. Everything else in the world turns off when I'm with him. Mountains become molehills and I'm 100% positive when I say this: I really think I've found the man I will spend the rest of my life with.

"So many guys have tried, they've tried to get into my eyes, but he's the only guy I see..."
- Kylie Minogue "Under The Influence Of Love"


Upon our arrival to the Village of Horseheads (Swear!), we checked into our room at the Holiday Inn, where according to the sign outside Jennifer and Kevin were getting married and probably honeymooning there as well.

Much to my dismay, I never got a chance to see Jennifer and Kevin (I'm sure they were beauts!) and I didn't get a chance to take a picture of the sign as well. Grrrrr!

With that we got our weekend underway...

Well, I won't bore you with all of the details (keep your eyes open for the upcoming scrapbook) but some of the highlights include but are not limited to:

Me (to gas station cashier Denise): So, um, where do you go to eat around here?
Denise (with her one tooth): McDonalds.

(Bear in mind that it was 8:45 on a Saturday night and they had already pulled the sidewalks in)

Staying up late to watch the Time Life Soft Rock collection, The Wine Trail (which could be a blog all on it's own--STELLAR!!), The Arnot Mall (When was the last time you saw a Bon-Ton AND a Jo-Ann's Fabrics in the mall!!??), The Treman Water Falls (stunning!), The Wal Mart hair salon (now we know who's responsible!), Common Ground (a gay bar in Ithaca--All Hail Janet/Gail!!!) and so much more...but it's hard to catalog every minute!



Suffice to say, I'm elated, overjoyed, enamored by all things Justin. He's my man and I will cut any bitch who tries to step to him!!

Thank you for letting me gush. You may now wipe down your computers :-D

Till Then,
John Michael




"Feeling more and more like I've never felt before. You have change my life so completely. Music fills my soul now. I've lost all control now. I'm not half, I'm whole now with your love..."
- Petula Clark "Happy Heart"

I'll be there when you're sleeping and every hour you're awake...

Let's start off with two things:

1) Yes, I know (sorry David) that I haven't written since January. We all know I go through my blogging phases.

and

2) I have to see how I'm going to write a blog about this subject matter when in all reality I'm a lil speechless. I know, I know, that's a very hard thing to imagine but it's true.

Here goes nothing.

And true to form, what could inspire John Michael to write a blog after so long? Of course it has to do with a man lol...

But I swear when I say this, it's not just ANY man, but as usual, I'm getting ahead of myself.

I can't help it though. Everytime I see him, invariably I find myself a little dizzy and and goofy when he's not there.

I digress.

Here's the basics:

Name: Justin
Location: Budd Lake, NJ (Yes, another Jersey boy lol)
Job: I.T. Technician
Ethnic Background: Scottish
Age: 26 (He has the same birthday as me! 2-24! I know--Freaky right??)

Aside from the fact that when it comes to music he dislikes most of what I like and vice versa (you know what a freak I am about that kinda stuff lol) I couldn't even care less.

He makes me swoon. He makes it hard for me to put it into words.

And I know I've said before that I've been excited about the men I've come across in my travels, but he doesn't just make me feel excited. He makes me feel beautiful.

I'm basically out-cheese-ing myself right now, but that's how it feels.

It's like the butterflies in my tummy have finally come back from their sabbatical.

At present time this is only week two, and I know everyone says "the honeymoon part" and whatnot but I just can't describe it. It's...different... and it makes me terribly inarticulate.

The words sorta jumble around in my head (and did I mention he has one of the best vocabularies since Oscar Wilde?) and I find myself feeling like someone who rode the little yellow bus to school (Yankees!! lol)

As soon as I leave him, I count the time down till I get to see him. He sparks my libido in a way that no man has for quite sometime. I couldn't put it all into words even though I'm trying.

We met at Feather's two weeks ago and thank GOD he had the nerve to approach me because I could've never imagined that night that this would happen.

Grrrrr!! I feel like this blog is so inconsistent and I'm having such a hard time writing something cohesive but my brain is still swirling, so forgive me everyone! I will try at a later date to be more literate than I am right now.

It's hard to be anything else when someone tells you: "I'm a sucker for sweetness and you're like candy." and "You're beautiful when you sleep." among many many others.

Thank you for letting me ramble everyone. I'll get it together by the next entry. I promise...and if I don't...then just be happy for me. It's a good sign.

Till Then,
John Michael

"I'll be there when you're sleeping and every hour you're awake. I wanna hear your secrets. I wanna share your worries. Wanna go the deepest. Don't wanna hurry. I wanna take a lifetime to memorize your face. I wanna hold you closer; Kiss you longer; Wanna hear your heartbeat, stronger and stronger. I wanna know you all over till I know you by heart. I wanna know you with all that I got. I wanna know you that good, like no one knows you. Gonna reach way down deep in your mind. I wanna get to know you that good..."
- Shania Twain "Wanna Get To Know You (That Good)"

Just another reason why I love You Tube

This was what started it all.

Somewhere back in the 1980's, a little boy was watching American Bandstand with his mother and their guest performer for the day was a woman named Cher. The little boy didn't know, couldn't know who she was or the impact she as a performer would have on his life. But one thing was for sure...He would never be the same.

Thanks Cher. Thanks American Bandstand and mostly, Thanks You Tube for offering me the chance to see again what I haven't seen in around 20 years. A piece of my history. My first Cher performance...

Curtis was supposed to...LOVE ME! (Or: Where is Fantasia Barrino now?)

I don't even know how to start this blog right now as I am still so blown away/moved/obsessed/ensorceled/enamored by the Dreamgirls movie...

As of right now, I've seen it twice. That number will probably change by the time the weekend is through. I'm taking everyone I know to see this movie.

Now, I don't wanna ruin anything because I do strongly reccommend you go see it, but I will just say that each and every performance in this movie is award-worthy. Everyone from Beyonce to J-Foxx & J-Hud (as I've affectionately named her) are stunning. Eddie Murphy-Amazing. All of them (even lil Anika Noni Rose) were incredible. This for me was the movie event of the year that I hoped it would be.

Forget everything you know about this show. This isn't your father's Dreamgirls.



Of course we all know that Jennifer Holiday created something with the character of Effie White that is by far an above untouchable. No one could ever do what that woman did. She's the goddess all of us little black girls look up to. However, J-Hud, having VERY big shoes to fill, took this role on like a champ and gave us a different Effie, just as good as Jenn Holiday, but not better. That in itself is a task and a half. Ask me again how Fantasia Barrino won American Idol and J-Hud didn't???



Beyonce really outdid herself in the role of Deena Jones and (yes, David) was a spitting image of Diana Ross (who this story is loosely based on of her and The Supremes). But the thing that was amazing was how she transformed right before your eyes. In the beginning of the movie she looked like a naive, shy, run of the mill little 16 year old girl. And let me tell you, I can't imagine how hard it is to make Beyonce not only look normal, but average and unflattering. I will go on record to say that I stand by this statement: Beyonce is the most beautiful woman walking on this earth. Go see this movie and I dare you to tell me differently.

So by the time we got to Beyonce's new song for the movie "Listen", I was more of a fan than I ever was. After "Listen" (and after using some kleenex), I realized that she really is a star of an amazing caliber and like Whitney's potential before her, she ain't going anywhere.

So, go see the movie. Go get the soundtrack (Deluxe Edition of course with dance mixes, demo's and duets). Run, don't walk, to the movie theatre and enjoy!



Till Then,
John Michael

Listen to the song here in my heart...

Ok, so it's been awhile since I've updated (now you can stop yelling at me David) so here it goes. I'm gonna try and get everything out in one fell swoop!

Let's start with a "who's the guy in John's life this week" update lol

If all goes well though, this will last longer than most recent people I've gone on dates with.

Here's the stats:

Name: Anthony
Location: Westchester, NY
Job: Owns own cleaning company
Height: About 2-3 inches shorter than me (clocking in at almost 6 feet)
Eyes: Brown
Hair: Black (starting to salt & pepper a lil)
Age: 38

How did this all come about you ask? Well, he's a friend of my friend Mike. They had come into Secrets (my Friday night gig) and I had noticed Anthony and was very briefly introduced to him but I was still wrapped up in some drama with Hector (scroll down) so I didn't really pay much attention to him.

A week would go by before I saw him again and this time it was at Hush (My other gig) but I wasn't working that night. Because of the amount of alcohol I had imbibed by this time I can't be quite sure how it all really came about (yes, he's at fault for the same thing lol). All I DO remember though is seeing him at the bar and talking to him. The next thing I know we were laughing then making out. So far so good lol.

And who says romance is dead? Hah!

Conversation and kissing kept up for the rest of the night and Anthony and Mike had a room at a nearby motel (read: crackhouse lol) and they had invited a few people to come back after the club had let out for a drink or two.

At first I said that I wasn't gonna stop by but then Sam and I had talked about it and went ahead with the idea. Long story short: More kissing. Got home at 6AM.

To be very honest, I never had expected anything to come out of it. While I'm not normally the kind of person to just hook up and never talk to the person again, this seemed like a drunk encounter and one of those "Mmmmhmmm yeah, I'll call you tomorrow..." kinda things.

I was wrong. (It does happen sometimes lolol)

He did in fact call and the conversation that followed was actually good. He was nice and intelligent and we made plans to hang out.

I won't go into every single detail, but I will say this: We've been out twice thus far and I really think that this has the possibility of going somewhere but I don't wanna jinx it.

I think the thing that's amazing me this time around is the amount of maturity I'm approaching this with. I know it seems silly but when you've dated as much as me it's easy to fall into bad dating habits and I think that has happened with me. I have the same conversations and ask the same questions over and over again like it was a job interview. This time it's different. Nothing is forced. It seems easier.

I'm also not the crazy, jealous, insecure person I used to be. Things don't bother or affect me like they used to and it's nice. There's so much less stress this way.

Keep your fingers crossed everyone, 2007 has the potential to be a good year.

And speaking of 2007, I can't believe that it's here already. 2006 for sure was the fastest year of my life. Everyone seems to be feeling the same way this year. I can only hope for the best though.

Christmas has just passed and it was a good one (as soon as all my presents arrive). Now since I have a nephew that's what it's all about. It amazes me how you can buy them all the toys in the world, but they'll play with something so irrelevant and simple. Ah well!

I'm DJing this New Years at Hush. This is what Im looking forward to the most right now. It's my first new years party and I think that it is going to be an amazing night. Almost all of my friends are coming to support me and it's wonderful! I really am lucky to have such a great network...

And on a completely separate note: Run, don't walk, to the nearest movie theatre to go see Dreamgirls! It is THE best movie of 2006 hands down! Possibly the best movie I've seen since Chicago. I saw it Christmas night and I think I'm gonna go again over the weekend.

I have to go get ready for work now (of course) so I will try to write more when I can, but till then, have a wonderful and safe new years and we'll be in touch! :-D

Till Then,
John Michael

"Listen to the song here in my heart. A melody I start but I will complete! Now I'm done believing you. You don't know what I'm feeling. I'm more than what you made of me. I followed the voice you think you gave to me. And now I've got to find my own...my own..."
- Beyonce "Listen" (from "Dreamgirls")

The Weekend Re-Cap

Friday night had me DJing at Secrets once again. Still, for the life of me, I'll never understand that bar. It's dead untilo like 1AM and then it gets flooded with people. ::shrug:: Who knew?

It was a good night over all. I always have fun there because I love the regulars I've come to know. Everyone's so friendly...

This week is going to be great cause it's PJ's (read: regulars) birthday and I know it's gonna be packed.

On the other hand, it should be interesting because Hector (who I don't think I've mentioned till just now) will be there.

Hector is a 25 year old Dominican guy I had met at Secrets and we went out on a date and had (what I thought was) a really good time. However, it's Tuesday now and I haven't heard from him since last Friday. He said he would call me over the weekend. ::shrug::...

And you wonder why I never place importance on anyone or anything lately? lol... C'est la vie!

Saturday found me quite annoyed as I had to go to work when I really didn't want to. The other receptionist I work with decided to leave me hanging when I had asked her early last week if she could work for me this Saturday so I could finish painting my house and move some stuff over. She said she'd let me know. She never did and avoided my phone calls.

Suffice to say I was livid when I realized I had to work. That will be dealt with tomorrow when I see her, I can assure you that.

I worked and then came home, relaxed and went out to Hush again on Saturday. Always a good time! It's so great to see Staten Island FINALLY has something for the gay community that isn't sleazy and cheesy. It's a nice lounge and for the past 3 weeks has been consistantly fun!

Sunday came around and I finished painting! I can't believe it! It's DONE! Haha! I thought I would be painting till the day I moved in!! Now I just have to unpack all my stuff from my furniture and start hauling it all over...I really can't believe it's here. It's so nice. This my light at the end of the tunnel...

Sunday night I went to Phil's house and watched "Another Gay Movie" with him. I LOVE that movie! We saw it at the Quad in NYC and he just got it on DVD (and I just ordered it from Amazon.com). I highly reccommend it! It's hysterical!!

Monday took David and I to Dr. Demonico (aka the Neuro surgeon assigned to his case) and everything went great! It's amazing how we're able to make fun of EVERYone along the way and not get slapped lol...(fueled of course by Starbucks...my teeth are stilll chattering)

Add in a trip to Target, Christmas Tree Shops & Bed, Bath & Beyond and it was a fun afternoon!

Last but not least, that leaves me here. 9:30 AM and I have to go shower to go to work. I so don't feel like going but such is life!

Till Then,
John Michael

"Tumble outta bed and stumble to the kitchen. Pour myself a cup of ambition. Yawnin, stretchin, try to come to life. Jump in the shower and the blood starts pumpin. Out on the streets the traffic starts jumpin. And folks like me on the job from 9 to 5..."
- Dolly Parton "9 To 5"