It's my happy heart you'll hear; singing loud and singing clear...

That's him ladies and gentlemen! That's my man. Justin.

As of right now, it's 9:36 on Tuesday morning and I've just woken up (at his place) and I'm reflecting on what was, without a doubt, one of the best weekends of my life.

I really don't know where to start, so I figured that picture would be good. That's in my apartment before we left for the trip.

Yes, we're in black and white, but it's ok, once we clear out our debt, we'll be in color again! Just ask Maya, she did it! Lmao! (Sorry everyone, that's an inside joke haha!)

I think the thing that really rocked my world was that even before we got anywhere, I was having a great time. Just being in his presence makes me collapse inwardly to all things Hallmark. It's almost scary, but I enjoy it immensly.

A few days before our trip, he gave me our different route options on how we could get there. Did I want a scenic route? Did I want a shorter route? Well, of course, fat girl logic kicked in once he asked if I wanted the route that had Krispy Kreme's along the way. I mean c'mon people! You can't deny an original glazed donut!!

And if I seem like I'm gushing an awful lot, you have to remember that aside from having the rockiest track record with men since Elizabeth Taylor, I do tend to be a little picky (shut up David) and I can usually find flaws within everyone I meet. It's a quality that runs through my family tree! However, for the first time in a very long time, I don't have that "Oh he's really great...but..."

No. There is no 'but'. He's amazing. I summed it up one night to him when I told him that I would now have to change the "Who I'd Like To Meet" section on my MySpace page because I've already met him.

(PS: My answer to that is now Cher.)

Even in the silences in our car ride, I've never felt closer to someone. As he said to me as well "I don't feel weird with you ever." and it's so true! I'm comfortable and I feel safe. Everything else in the world turns off when I'm with him. Mountains become molehills and I'm 100% positive when I say this: I really think I've found the man I will spend the rest of my life with.

"So many guys have tried, they've tried to get into my eyes, but he's the only guy I see..."
- Kylie Minogue "Under The Influence Of Love"


Upon our arrival to the Village of Horseheads (Swear!), we checked into our room at the Holiday Inn, where according to the sign outside Jennifer and Kevin were getting married and probably honeymooning there as well.

Much to my dismay, I never got a chance to see Jennifer and Kevin (I'm sure they were beauts!) and I didn't get a chance to take a picture of the sign as well. Grrrrr!

With that we got our weekend underway...

Well, I won't bore you with all of the details (keep your eyes open for the upcoming scrapbook) but some of the highlights include but are not limited to:

Me (to gas station cashier Denise): So, um, where do you go to eat around here?
Denise (with her one tooth): McDonalds.

(Bear in mind that it was 8:45 on a Saturday night and they had already pulled the sidewalks in)

Staying up late to watch the Time Life Soft Rock collection, The Wine Trail (which could be a blog all on it's own--STELLAR!!), The Arnot Mall (When was the last time you saw a Bon-Ton AND a Jo-Ann's Fabrics in the mall!!??), The Treman Water Falls (stunning!), The Wal Mart hair salon (now we know who's responsible!), Common Ground (a gay bar in Ithaca--All Hail Janet/Gail!!!) and so much more...but it's hard to catalog every minute!



Suffice to say, I'm elated, overjoyed, enamored by all things Justin. He's my man and I will cut any bitch who tries to step to him!!

Thank you for letting me gush. You may now wipe down your computers :-D

Till Then,
John Michael




"Feeling more and more like I've never felt before. You have change my life so completely. Music fills my soul now. I've lost all control now. I'm not half, I'm whole now with your love..."
- Petula Clark "Happy Heart"

I'll be there when you're sleeping and every hour you're awake...

Let's start off with two things:

1) Yes, I know (sorry David) that I haven't written since January. We all know I go through my blogging phases.

and

2) I have to see how I'm going to write a blog about this subject matter when in all reality I'm a lil speechless. I know, I know, that's a very hard thing to imagine but it's true.

Here goes nothing.

And true to form, what could inspire John Michael to write a blog after so long? Of course it has to do with a man lol...

But I swear when I say this, it's not just ANY man, but as usual, I'm getting ahead of myself.

I can't help it though. Everytime I see him, invariably I find myself a little dizzy and and goofy when he's not there.

I digress.

Here's the basics:

Name: Justin
Location: Budd Lake, NJ (Yes, another Jersey boy lol)
Job: I.T. Technician
Ethnic Background: Scottish
Age: 26 (He has the same birthday as me! 2-24! I know--Freaky right??)

Aside from the fact that when it comes to music he dislikes most of what I like and vice versa (you know what a freak I am about that kinda stuff lol) I couldn't even care less.

He makes me swoon. He makes it hard for me to put it into words.

And I know I've said before that I've been excited about the men I've come across in my travels, but he doesn't just make me feel excited. He makes me feel beautiful.

I'm basically out-cheese-ing myself right now, but that's how it feels.

It's like the butterflies in my tummy have finally come back from their sabbatical.

At present time this is only week two, and I know everyone says "the honeymoon part" and whatnot but I just can't describe it. It's...different... and it makes me terribly inarticulate.

The words sorta jumble around in my head (and did I mention he has one of the best vocabularies since Oscar Wilde?) and I find myself feeling like someone who rode the little yellow bus to school (Yankees!! lol)

As soon as I leave him, I count the time down till I get to see him. He sparks my libido in a way that no man has for quite sometime. I couldn't put it all into words even though I'm trying.

We met at Feather's two weeks ago and thank GOD he had the nerve to approach me because I could've never imagined that night that this would happen.

Grrrrr!! I feel like this blog is so inconsistent and I'm having such a hard time writing something cohesive but my brain is still swirling, so forgive me everyone! I will try at a later date to be more literate than I am right now.

It's hard to be anything else when someone tells you: "I'm a sucker for sweetness and you're like candy." and "You're beautiful when you sleep." among many many others.

Thank you for letting me ramble everyone. I'll get it together by the next entry. I promise...and if I don't...then just be happy for me. It's a good sign.

Till Then,
John Michael

"I'll be there when you're sleeping and every hour you're awake. I wanna hear your secrets. I wanna share your worries. Wanna go the deepest. Don't wanna hurry. I wanna take a lifetime to memorize your face. I wanna hold you closer; Kiss you longer; Wanna hear your heartbeat, stronger and stronger. I wanna know you all over till I know you by heart. I wanna know you with all that I got. I wanna know you that good, like no one knows you. Gonna reach way down deep in your mind. I wanna get to know you that good..."
- Shania Twain "Wanna Get To Know You (That Good)"